~The pain was nothing like I'd ever felt before. It wasn't the type that physically hurt more than anything, but it was a type of pain that was indescribable; I loathed this pain. I loathed feeling this way. It was so cold, so lonely and not at all where I had wanted to be at eighteen years old. It awoke me in the middle of the night, around 1 am. It was storming outside, a torrential downpour could be seen through my windowpane as I lifted my metal hand to draw back the curtains. The stormy weather didn't help matters much. The terrible aching was tormenting my joints and nerves that connected to my automail. I sat up in my bed, it feeling strangly cold, despite my warm body that had been under the blankets just moments ago. Distant thunder was heard with a few flashes of lightning to accompany it.

I drew my left knee up to my chin and rested my chin on top of the cool metal. A loud crack of thunder resounded across the sky causing a seering pain to course through my shoulder and leg, so I grit my teeth and squeezed my eyes shut against the sting of tears. I hated crying...I grasped my fingertips around my leg, holding on tightly. Everytime the weather changed, it hurt. Nothing here could help me endure this feeling, not even my younger brother Al, who was off in his room sound asleep with probably every single cat that we own in his bed with him. There was only one thing, one person that could even remotely be of some comfort to me and that was Winry. I constantly have to keep reminding myself that she was no longer with me anymore. I'd made the choice to come back to Munich. I made the stupid choice of leaving her behind. That was my only regret... ~

Ah Ed Angst. I know, I'm such a sadist, but I love it <3 Anyway, I don't do indoor drawings often, but yeah. Enjoys ^_^

Pose inspired by Chapter 6: Destruction's Right Hand in the FMA Manga

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